Phone Conversations

I honestly can't remember where I talked on the phone for hours on end

This girl has helped me through more I can remember, she's known me at my fworst. Since 8th grade, the one person who has helped me more then anybody. It's crazy how much I can say I owe to her.. I don't know if I'd even be alive today without her.

Anyways, while on the phone with her we picked myself apart. Make a list of everything bout me and divided them into positive and negative groups. An hour later I'm looking at this paper I made and I'm staring at everything negative about me. As I start there staring at this I realized that most of it has been going away, or stuff that I can easily change. It feels so good to be back to myself. Everybody notices it, I'm so happy it's almost disgusting.

For the first time last night I realized that I do indeed love myself. I love who I'm becoming, who I am, my goals, my ambitions, my thoughts, my motives, my perspective and the hardest part my flaws. Most men can't accept their flaws but I can and I love them. By loving them I want to change them so I can improve myself. You always remind me of how to love myself, Like i used to over a year ago. I am one of the most beautiful human beings ever created, I've been through more shit then any 20 yr old could handle, and I'm still trucking.

It's so much easier when you just push out of the negative things in your life, you just don't got time for them.

Loving yourself is honestly the best feeling you could ever feel. You get that invincibility shield around you.