Let me re-introduce myself

as a man with a cause

I've had so much time to think about everything. Music has been my key therapy, along with amazing friends. In the end I came to the realization... that nothing is wrong haha

Yesterday, kids I barely knew showed me the time of my life. I haven't had that much fun in god knows how long. I thank them alot.

It feels so good to be back in my skin

Since the summer I've told people how much I wanted to be back in my skin, that I was so lost. I remember I used to tell Hannah all the time over the summer how much I wanted to be me again. Truth is I haven't found myself until recently. I sugarcoated it since the summer, but truth was I was never happy, I wasn't me.

So how do I know that I'm actually back in my skin? Well I know for sure because the demons are gone. All the uncontrollable urges have finally been tamed. The thoughts, actions, words and habits. I CONTROL THEM NOW. Also, the pain is gone. The hate, sorrow, disgust, all of that is gone. I let it go... god damn did it feel so good to let it go.

I fell off for a awhile and it damn nearly took me 5 months to get myself back. Demons cleared, head straight and back to myself. I love it. Dispite everything that has happened to me, life isn't so bad. I've come to terms with some of the hardest shit anybody will have to deal with.

In the end I am as strong as I thought... it was just hidden...


You gotta be brought down to worse to improve your best. I've seen my worse and it did me good. I know I'm never going back to that and the fact that the best of me is so much more improved.. it is an amazing feeling

"Welcome back Branden"

PS: I know how you feel kid. I read a lot of your blogs and it's crazy that you took some of the words right out of my mouth. There is hope though and you're so much stronger then you ever believed