FORGIVE ME

But as for now this is goodbye. I can't stand to watch you be with some one else, and I definitely can't be harassed bout it by him and his friend.

I have to push you out to give you want you want. If you wanna be happy then I have to disappear for awhile because right now as long as I talk to you I'm always going to want you.

Forgive me for deleting you out of my phone completely, I just can't be tempted anymore. I have to let you go, else I'm going to feel like shit bout myself for way too long.

maybe some day youll realize we won't go back to what we were and that we could start new. Maybe someday you'll realize it wasn't just me scared when we dated.. that you pushed me out just as much.

I think this is the most mature thing I've ever done. It feels good your friends agree, specially after letting them listen to the voicemail I had received that started this. I wish you would listen to it...maybe it'd change your perpestive on everything.I'm glad they don't blame me for not wanting to be apart of it anymore.. i can't do it.. it's tearing me apart..

As for now, I have no diea why you hate me so much, but I hope some day I understand. I wish you'd talk to me, but you never could with me, I hope that changes someday too. You mean the world to me and always will..

I was pushing you out to make you happy, so you didn't have to hear my shit. SO I couldn't be harassed anymore. I know youll be happy in the end.. i don't care even if its with him.. personally I hope he proves everyone wrong.. you deserve someone amazing..

I look forward to the day this all clears and we can eventually be friends again and who knows maybe something more.

I never had intentions of making you miserable but I could see I wasn't doing you any good now.. i made this decision in the most unshelfish way possible..maybe some day you'll realize that.. to had nothing to do to make you miserable.. it was for you to be free of my shit, for me to get over you, for us to have time.

I know I'ma be ok.. it just sucks.. this will be harder then quitting smoking and biting my nails.

Forgive me kid, but you completely got the wrong idea out of all of this, best of luck <3

"don't ever let them say you ain't beautiful, they can all get fucked, just stay true to you"