Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Mind at Ease

It's time I cool off

I don't know whats got into me recently but I have just been uptight.
I've been worrying bout shit I don't need to.. just in general.

It's true. You do want to be with me and that's all that matters. We've been through a lot on both ends and I want to benefit from it. I really don't know why I've acted the way I have sometimes. I hate it to be completely honest. Yea you do shit to piss me off, but that's going to happen and how I react is on me. Not anybody else.

Your attitude has effected me so much that I'm starting to get one. I'm turning into this monster I never was before. I refuse to turn into that and I won't. I'm stopping myself while I realize it now. That's not me and I won't let you turn me into that.

I want to help you. I really do but the key is to wanting to help yourself. If you don't want to then I can't help and if I can't help I just can't stay.

I love you kid and I'm trying here, but you got to want it to change too.

I want my end to change

Only time will tell.. only time will tell.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

you will destroy yourself.
talk about serious contradiction.
that's all you are, one big contradiction.
Good luck, she will be the death of you.