Im here...

but im not ever really h e r e

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been driving on a bridge and had the urge to to just drive off..

not even as a suicide attempt but to see what would happen?

Is it worth it?

You could black out and not remember anything but just being asleep.. then it comes down to it.. do you want to wake up? Is it worth waking up?

You know once you wake up some things will never be the same? but is that so bad? Do you honestly want things to be different? Maybe "different" just isn't so bad.. maybe that different is what you needed all along in your life?

What do you do when you ain't afraid to die? Would you call it losing hope? Does hope even really exist? All fear is based around some way of dying. You fear something because it could hurt you.. and eventually kill you. What is you don't fear death? Does this make you invincible? Is it possible for a human to be invincible?

Im so glad I took this road trip of mine. It felt good to get away of what I use to call "home" cause I realized I don't have a home. I don't know if I ever will. I don't see that so bad though? Who needs a home? Home is for people who want security.. maybe I don't want that? Maybe the fact of never knowing whats going to happen next is the best part? Who wants to know.. I sure as hell don't..

I realized next summer I plan on going for a 5 week trip just to everywhere. Map it out and just go.. different people every day.. different scenery every day.. a different me everyday

I slowly realized so much about myself this past week. Just bout everything in a positive way. It feels good.

I just ain't ready to head home

it felt AMAZING TO JUST GET AWAY

AHHHHH