Dear Parents:

I will never forgive you guys for what you have done to me
I don't think anyone who has never been in the situation will realize how much a divorce has on their kid. Thanks to you guys I have questioned every single thing in my life that has ever had to do with the world love. Thanks you to guys for 17 years of my life I didn't even fucking believe in the word. I dispised the word. You guys shower me the word love was cheating, alcohol, abuse and fighting. In the end to get a divorce after 10 years of being married.

Now thank you. For the first time ever I have understood what the word meant. I started to erase this definition of the word that you guys drilled in my head for 14 years of my life. That "love" is not something you should be afraid or fear. ITS NOT SOMETHING I SHOULD HAVE THROWN AWAY. you guys made me second guess probably one of the only pure things in my life. For tyhis I could never forgivr you

I can never forgive you guys for the pain, mistrust, dillusions, people I've lost, pushed out, jaded or anything. I will never forgive you for making me lose something that I thought NEVER EVER existed.

Well no thanks to you two I know the word exists. I know what it means. It so much better then what I ever grew up and thought it meant. Now I have lost it thanks to you too

but from this day on I will never let you two hold me back. I made the own defintion of love and it's so much better then what you two taught me.

Never again will I push someone out that I was heads over heels for, becuase I'm scared. Scarted to end up like you two miserable people. Scard to become an alcoholic like my father. Scared becuase in the end I believed i was going to get hurt

FUCK THAT

from here on out, I will carry this word with the utmost meaning. If I ever say it again it will not be what I grew up thinking this word meant, but what I have formed out of it.

The fact that loves does in the end conquer all, It is infact THE BEST FEELING you can ever withold.

Now thank to you two, who knows if I will ever expierence that again.

Thanks you parents <3 you guys did swell in teaching me to fear the most sacred feeling in humans history


Ima show you two this post one day, I swear just so you really know what you guys did to me and how wrong you guys were

I have hit rock bottom

I've officially got nothing to lose

not even my dignity