Where have you gone?

Personally I loved December.

I loved it a lot more when I was a wee lad. I loved the fireplaces, walking around the neighborhood smelling peoples fires,the Christmas lights everywhere, people smiling and waving. IT WAS JUST ALL AROUND AMAZING. I miss it a lot

I'm rather disgusted to say how much I've learned to despise this time of year. What was once my favroite season and month has now turned into something I can't stand. Everyone is so caught up in stupid bullshit each year. As I get older I noticed it gets worse. I miss fires in my fireplace and singing christmas songs and even going to look at lights. No one ever smiles anymore or anything. Everyone is so caught up in money issues and presents and other dumb bullshit. I hate it. FUCK PRESENTS, if I could have it my way, on christmas I just wish I could have everyone I cared for around a huge fireplace and smoking bluntz hahaha =] or just everyone chillen in by a fire and just having a good time.

I'm so tired of so much. I'm not depressed at all. So I hope who ever reads this doesn't think I'm depressed or something, trust me I'm far from it. I'm just fed up.

My mom told my sister shes kicked out when she's 18. I've never seen them fight this bad before. She started stealing my moms money and such, and on top of that she owes my mom hundred of dollars. I really don't know how I feel bout it. I know my sister would never last on her own. Haha she can't even support her self when she has somewhere free to stay you know?

I really can't wait till I finish school. about a yr and a half left and then I want to start anew.

I PROMISE THE FIRST PERSON WHO CAN TAKE ME AWAY FROM HERE FOR AWHILE WITH LOW EXPENSES OR PROMISE A BETTER LIFE THEN I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER.