I AM

A ZOMBIE 0_o

Its the worse

damn disease I've ever caught

I'm so over

LIFE

hands down,

im too proud for love

It just

isn't happening

Giving back

so lately I've been spending time with this women who lives a few houses down. She a very elderly women whos just had her husband pass away about a year ago.

She start to be incapable of moving around, so often I've driven her around or do shit around her house.

So now every day when i get out of school i go to see her and help her out. I really don't know why I like helping her out so much but I do. It weird cause she tells me all these life stories and it's crazy to hear a person's history and what she has witnessed and such. It's funny becuase I even vent to her.

It's so sad though to realize that's what I have to look forward in life. just seems so... disappointing?

I don't even know the word

Laugh before you grin

Anything but silence, anything you say
will stay in my head for days and days.

Off my chest

so here it is done and over with.

I just want to thank you for proving me right.

I can honestly say I've never felt so stupid in my life.

An online boy? Like fucking really? Never met him and gave him you number,web cam with him, sending texts and pic messages and all this shit? I'm sorry but I'm not ok with that and is personally fucked up on you. Like I said he must of been that cute if you had to lie straight to my life. So much for never giving your number to random boys right? ha

Personally, everything in me wants to be with you, but I won't do it. I'm better then that. SO MUCH better then that. I'm sorry you just couldn't see that. I don't deserve to be lied to or you going behind my back.

I guess the easiest part is knowing I didn't do anything wrong. YOU LOST ME but I didn't lose you. I really don't want much to do with you, I don't think you deserve me even talking to you right now.

I hope you're happy, cause you destroyed me. Your attitude got the best of you and I told you I wouldn't deal with that shit. Just hope your online boyfriend can.

I just don't get how you didn't learn with Jared? After every thing you put me through with him?

I blame myself for not ending it then and there.. it would of saved me so much time


Congratulations Nicole, for fucking up something I thought was going to go somewhere.

Just don't do the same to him? It just isn't right.


STICK WITH ONE BOY (atleast don't lie to him?)

It's whatever

I think Ima lay low for awhile

Cause I can't live...

like you do, never could


This clock is ours now, till morning.
So stay right there in that frame
This picture is how we see you
You'll never see me again,
cause I miss you already.

I've concluded..

that i really hate being told "I don't care" or "I don't know"


It really just irritates the shit out of me

972

down for life, faggots

=]

this past weekend

was exactly what I needed