Saturday, February 28, 2009

Winter Weekend Trip


So I'm sitting next to Emily in her dorm at Radford killing time before a basketball game. Justin and I headed this way last night to get away form VA beach. I was originally suppose to come to Radford with Nicole and her friend Heather but some complications happened so it didn't work out. Since I had the weekend off I decided I had to leave VA Beach. I'm so tired of everyone's shit there.

It's funny that if you ever get the chance to stand back and watch the group you called "friends". I realized now why I started to distant myself from them. I'm so tired of hearing he/she said bulshit.  Then they try to pull me into it. I hate gossiping and shit and I've realized thats everyone is guilty of it. I just listen to everyone talk shit on everyone like I fucking care. But four now there is bout four people I just can't be around. It sucks with Bo and I but I've realized that distancing my self from him and Emily has done me a lot and good. Cause then when I hear all that drama they start it jut feels so good not be be in it. So I think from here on out I'm staying away from that group, so tired of hearing bout he/she said bullshit... I don't need to surround myself around fake people... let them have their bullshit just thank yourself you're not in it hahaha

Also, I'm amped my cousin came into VA for a week and she staying in Lynchburg which is rather nice. She cam down for her Miss Ohio training so yea...

but it feels nice to be away form Va Beach although I wish it wasn't so rainy and cold here. 


All in all though I can say I'm pretty content with life. Nicole and I have an amazing relationship. It's amazing to have a happy-medium and just be content with someone. 


motto still stands:

FUCK YOUR BULLSHIT

and from now on I'm just not dealing with it

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

can't hide it

G-U-I-T-L-Y

reflection

Personally, you're starting to freak me the fuck out

Monday, February 23, 2009

If it don't apply

then let it fly


I can't wait for the months of april/may

mad road trips

I'ma never be home!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Monday, February 16, 2009

I want to meet!

someone as CRAZY, INSANE, NUTZ, OUT THERE, HYPER, and LOOPY

as me

people take like way too seriously, am I the only one that feels that way?

I just have a side I want to show SOMEBODY

that I never show to anyone


mostly becuase no one would get it and I'd probably be put into a insane asylum

but there is a famous quote

"Everybody is insane, just the people outside of the asylum can control it better"

Sunday, February 15, 2009

I'm SO READY

to be done with SCHOOL!

and get on with my damn life

shittt

Friday, February 13, 2009

Do you ever?

Stand back and watch from a distance?
Like, step out of your group of friends for awhile and just watch em. Then you start to realize can you trust any of them? Then you notice how much shit they all talk on each other, which makes you wonder... what do they say bout you? I just feel like I need a whole need surrounding. It just seems if you have nothing special to offer then they don't want you. No one ever calls me anymore to hang out, I'm always getting ditched, and I just watch as my "friends" go behind my back manipulate each other. I think maybe it's just time I stand clear of them for awhile and stop trying so hard... if they want to be friend they'll make an effort.

Feel so lonely, in midst of being surrounded by people?
I just don't feel like anyone gets it. I almost feel depressed at times, for no apparent reason. I'm just not happy it seems? and for what? I couldn't tell you. I just feel like there is so much I need to work and change.

nothing makes me smile anymore

I just don't know what to do?

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

I forgot

what "that" feels like

so long for now my friend

Monday, February 9, 2009

It's a fact:

I'm not capable of loving anyone

ever

but I can cope with that

Monday, February 2, 2009

five years

Where do you want to be in five years?

Well I'd be 24 going on 25 in five years

Personally, I want to be finished with school

I really would like to put my restaurant idea through and be successful off of it. While maintaining a web development job making like $80,000 a year, which is in reach.
Personally, I'd like to be married or close to it by then. I'd like to have a small beach house, nothing too fancy. Enough space, but I want it to be maybe like South Carolina? Def. want to live south, if possible a completely different country. I'd really like to find an amazing career is Australia. I just want out of the U.S.

it's scary cause in five years I'ma have to really get my life going. If I don't have a career by 24 then I'm slacking. Personally, I'd like to have got my foot in the door by the time in 22.

but who knows. A lot can happen in five years.