Last night was... I just don't know how to explain

I thought I was going out with my girlfriend last night... she asked me earlier in the week to be her date to some party...but uh... I guess she didn't want me to go? I don't know what happened?



It's whatever though... I ended up going to the beach to some party. OF COURSE you'd be there...I should have known...something told me you would be there. I wish I didn't see you, I wish you didn't come up and talk to me and even more I wish you didn't tell me you missed me. The whole night you just kept trying to talk to me... it's just not in me... I can't do it, you try to get me feeling all nostalgic I really do hate it... We ended and I wouldn't change that now, SORRY

the truth is I found someone new and she easily towers over you

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I BELIEVE IN ANYMORE

Not Alone...

To all you heroin addicts,
I can relate;
To the lonely girl sitting in the corner,
I can relate;
To all the alcoholics,
I can relate;
To the all the suicidal people,
I can relate;
To the people who have been jaded, abandoned, left for dead
this is for you
You are not alone
I know what it is to have nothing
to want change so bad,
but even more, to be afraid of it
the only thought or feeling left
is the feeling of hope
but this feeling, my friends
is what keeps us preserving on
we are this, this hope in our hearts
we are this, this great movement
as long as there hope we can do anything
so don't ever lose hope,
or you have officially lost it all
hope is the only thing that will never turn it's back on you
you are not in this alone
we are not in this alone

Get off my cloud

The human species would thrive better in isolation, retarded, and without the capability of annunciation.

How would we interact with one another? With joy and happiness.
Could it be that whats inferior is really superior?
A supreme being?
Socialization is a form of regression.
Therefore the measure is nonexistent for progression.
This world cant bring me to my knees when it's dead to me.
Our society's apathy will never get the best of me.

So I live in confinement because this is bullshit, I repent.
I look at a crowd of empty faces, kids who just don't give a shit.
Free thought is scorned upon.
If you're a victim you're a pawn.
Can't cut loose with no excuse.
Unaccountable, we're enslaved and can't be saved when we believe "everything happens for a reason."

To not accept our "fate" is moral treason.
We turn a blind eye to the problems of man because it's part of gods "master plan."
Centuries of religious archetypes is how this all began.
We must break free from the shackles of thought to fucking understand.
That our fear of death is what fucking kills us.
We're slaves to our gods and we can never be free.
We can never be free of the tyranny of bigotry within the bourgeoisie.
Where a system based on greed is fucking drowning me.

Just because you close your eyes doesn't mean the world disappears.

We're truly blind when our imaginations are filled with fears.
I believe in myself and my heart.
Not religious zealotry that is used to rule you and me,
Where god is made into a cheap fucking whore.
Our lord should deserve more.
So I broke free from the fallacies.
I don't need a savior because I saved myself.

enough said.

Dreaming...

I've been having these weird dreams lately
like am I sleeping or is this reality?
I've been falling down this black hole for way too long
I go to scream but nothing comes out,
as this black monster swallows me
I hit the ground with loud thud
I look around to read sign
"Welcome to your heart"
I tried to talk to God again
but he takes too many vacations
I find a small door that reads "more"
Exiting out of the this hole
into an environment that was too cold
I need find a new high, a better supply
I talk to stranger who said he could take me there
He whispered in my ear you have nothing to fear
he told me he had the perfect cure
he told me what he had was pure
I just told him I needed a new addiction
He told me death would solve it all
I realized I had something better
told him I didn't have enough to pay
so we parted our ways

I just can't tell if I am still dreaming or not...

" Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight, will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is......"

Generation Y aka the "Millennials"

So I'm sitting here in class and I just had to do a presentation on Millenials.

Millenials are us, my age group, my generation. The "we" generation. Groups are the way to go to get work done.

We are the proud tech savvy kids who are a lot more liberal. We are the social networking group. 97% of us have a computer. 82% of us own a cell phone. We stay in contact through, IM, text, e-mail or websites.

Believe it or not we have the highest test score average. It steadily is still going up today, also millenials have a lower crime rate and teen pregnancy rate.

We are more open about issues. Gay marriage, drugs, religon, and many other culture issues. Religon is a dying factor in our generation. I can't say that's really a bad thing. I am not religous at all and personally think it's a way to brainwash kids.

I can say I'm proud to be a part of our generation and I fall into many of these characteristics. For one, I am an enviromentalist. I have done plenty of community service to help better our enviroment and commmunity. I try to save as much energy I can and preserve water. I'm not a big fan of wasting anything.

Anyways, I just thought a lot of that information was kind of intresting. It's all so very true to me. There is no denying it at all.

Starting Fre$$$$h

So I moved from XANGA to here

Mostly because I had to make one in class for a grade

and now I'm just going to use it

I've had an xanga for over four years now

time to move on hahaha