it was never

bout what I wanted

but what I needed

theres a huge difference

I've never ever felt this shitty in my life

The word "love" can go fuck itself

along with any other synonym for it

goodbye

to you

and everything that I knew

I try so hard

can't seem to get myself away from misery

I'm not too sure why

haha I love this picture

taken friday of matt and hannah and I

I'm back to my fun self again...

I don't need all this in my life

It's official

I'm comfortably numb again.

Something I haven't felt in awhile

I wouldn't say I exactly miss it?

but it's normal for me

it's all I'm used to

:)

I suppose it's time

to just accept it


i never wanted it to come to this

but oh well.. it was out of my control

TODAY ISTHE DAY

I LET IT ALL GO

This is the last

post I will ever write bout you

I tried and tried and I officially give up

I'm blocking you out in all ways possible for awhile


Thanking you for making this so much easier on me.. now you can move on since it's so easy for you..

unfortunately I will admit, it isn't for me, specially knowing none of it was my fault so now I'm blocking you out

cause I ain't happy and I'm not stupid enough to pretend

I just can't lie..specially to myself

you had your chance and I suppose I just wasn't worth it

so goodbye


After yesterday you made me realize it isn't worth it

you lost me forever

now you got what you want

so leave me alone so I can move on since you can so easily

fuck off

It's time

you'll thank me one day... trust me

More than anything

I just want these fucking thoughts out of my head

Bored in class

I haven't gotten to post as much as I'd like to recently.

Summe ris officially here, the beach days, bush gardens, beach parties, being all sandy, surfing, enjoying the wetaher, and all of that is offically back.

It just sucks to still be in school during the summer. It will be even worse in like two weeks when Virginia Public schools end and the senior graduate.

but hey i got a break coming july so it's cool.

It's not like I even have anything planned for the summer, so yeah.

I can't wait till the summer after I graduate college. I plan to work the whole summer and top off my savings and then move to Australia.

I CAN'T WAIT

anyone who has talked to me knows that it's been my life dream since I was like 14 to move there.

IT WILL HAPPEN