it's time save ourselves before we destroy ourselves
we are nothing but destruction and what I am becoming more disgusted with myself
I have a reputation for holding my word and I won't let us destroy ourselves
I promised you we would not turn into that couple. I watch my friends and their girlfriends and I just don't want to be that. I don't want to fight everyday and just become a mess. I'm stopping it here before it happens
Unfortunately, we cross the line to where I have to push you out, because I don't want to hate you. I want nothing more to be with you, but it's just not attainable right now. We tried the friends before and we both concurred, it all or nothing. I can't watch you go out and party and go to clubs and go out with other guys. It's not in me, I need so much more time for me to accept that. I have no choice but to shut you out.
"time heals all wounds" and maybe that is what we need? All the stuff that happened between us needs time to heal us up.
I guess the hardest part is knowing there wasn't much I could do to prevent this. It kills me to know it was out of my reach, that you caused this.
but in the end, I have hope for us. I can see us picking up one day where we had to break it off. Worry free, no damage from our past. I can forgive the lies, mistrust and the damage.
In the end hope is what keeps the world moving, if you lost hope you lost everything. We haven't lost everything darling, because i still have hope for us.
goodbye<3
EDIT: this is going to be so much harder then I ever thought
